everytime you go away, you take a piece of me with you.

so he likes her and not me. just thought you should know.

 funeral: friday 11:00 a.m.?

im having so many regrets right now. im tryin to live my life right now, telling people im sorry for being such a b and being a good person, but its hard.

vb game- tuesday 5:30 (two games) come and watch!

see yall there- <3 lauren

i took this picture of Jarod for the yearbook when i was in pubstaff, it just seems like yesterday when i called him out into the hall from his room. This picture was for all-star basketball player and then i wrote this on the side- Jarod Hubbard has had a great basketball season this year. Although both A-team and B-team did not win 1st place for the City Championship, they worked to their full potential. They had determination and pride in themselves and that is what helped them on their road to success. ( I should of wrote more about him..) living with regrets- sigh..

[Chorus: Fundisha - repeat 4X] They're playing basketball We love that basketball [Lil' Bow Wow] Yeah, now basketball is my favorite sport I love the way they dribble up and down the court I keep it so fresh on the microphone I like no interruption when the game is on I like slam dunk, to take me to the hoop My favorite play is the alley-oop I like the pick-and-roll I like the give-and-go In this basketball, Bow Wow, let's go [Chorus] [Lil' Bow Wow] I got the rock in my hands Aint no telling what I'm gonna do with it When I come position I'ma act a fool with it I might cross you up fake one way Turn around and hit you with you with the MJ fadeaway I'm throwing dime passes like J. Kidd Taking cats to the rack And I'm dunking on them like T. Mac When I'm in the paint I play with that Alonzo style I'm like Darius cause I can shoot two miles [Fabolous] Don't too many players get offers like me Back and forth, I'll likely Shake the checks off your Nikes They almost had me in a suit at the draft And it look like a free throw when I be shooting from half The first step like Iverson - blow past you Usually nothing but net, but I can go blast too When I'm in the paint the defense so shook They dont know if I'ma put up a slow hook, or dish off a no-look See my game consist of a whole lotta Moves you would think I learned from the Harlem Globetrotters J.D. gon lead us to a ring Fab and Bow Wow the only players that make cheerleaders wanna sing [Chorus] [Jermaine Dupri] Now tell me were you in the joint The night MJ scored 63 points When the Lakers won titles back to back Didnt give nobody, no kind of slack When Vince Carter gave and stuck his arm in the rim Everybody went crazy in the whole damn gym Dikembe Mutombo standing tall Playing D with desire, it's basketball

-that song will always remind me of Jarod now. me & tano have decided to play basketball this year just for Jarod. It will make him happy to know that his friends are living his dream just for him. He's probably playing basketball in heaven now, but were playing basketball now on earth to live on his dream. He could of been a famous basketball star, but his life was taken away and i know God has a purpose for him. R.I.P. Jarod Hubbard 8/13/05

    WE WILL ALWAYS LOVE AND REMEMBER YOU! <3

my conclusion is this:
you don't ever stop loving someone.
It's more a matter of learning to deal with the pain
of not having them anymore 

i know its been along time, sorry. i've been caught up in volleyball and then in my very little free time- guys. its ridiculous how stupid i am when it comes to them. i promise i'll learn someday. for all ya'll who know what im talking about, and how incredibly stupid i am acting right now when it comes to guys im sorry, but im your friend so get over it. some lyrics to brighten my day-

Push the door, I'm home at last
and I'm soaking through and through
Then you hand me a towel
and all I see is you
And even if my house falls down,
I wouldn't have a clue
Because you're near me and

I want to thank you
for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you
is having the best day of my life    -Dido "Thank You"

now heres my song hehe-

Lost in a dream
Don't know which way to go
If you are all that you seem
Then baby I'm moving way too slow

I've been a fool before
Wouldn't like to get my love caught
In the slammin' door
How about some information--please

Straight up now tell me
Do you really want to love me forever oh oh oh
Or am I caught in a hit and run
Straight up now tell me
Is it gonna be you and me together oh oh oh
Are you just having fun

Time's standing still
Waiting for some small clue
I keep getting chills
When I think your love is true

I've been a fool before
Wouldn't like to get my love caught
In the slammin' door
How about some information--please

well thats definetly long enough. ill try to update sooner, its just i've got so much on my mind. </3 lou